Stop falling for people, you’re better on your own. They will always back stab you. People are cunts.
Day by day I hate people more and more. I can see some day I’ll stop caring that my name is down in the police files as I’ve done more than 3 years of martial arts and start using my skills to start knocking people out. They are fucking retarded.
I would never let a friend see my Facebook, because in real life I’m in this strong person, who never speaks about his feelings, who never lets anyone into his life, who wouldn’t trust anyone with 2 cents, who smiles no matter what, who shrugs off anything that happens to him, who avoids all his problems, who has no care or concern for a singular soul walking this earth, who couldn’t care less if you wanna be in his life or not and can get over anyone like they never mattered anything.
But at the end of the day he’s still a human being, he has feelings, even though he doesn’t promote it for everyone to see he still does inside, he wishes he could lie down and sleep for all eternity and only wake up to eat. He still wishes he could have someone he could rest his head on and be in peace, feel safe for once. He may not cry, because he doesn’t wanna punish himself that way, but he wishes someone would still be there in case he ever did and could pick him up when he falls, he wants a person who will love unconditionally and will support even after his stupid decisions, he wishes he could release all that sadness, desperation and punishing feeling that drives him further and further into the abyss with someone so he didn’t feel like he had to carry the whole world on his own. He’s still a human being and every human being deserves to be happy, every human being deserves to feel safe, every human being deserves to feel loved.
But he doesn’t want someone that is going to crush his trust and love like everyone in his life has, his parents, his best friend, all his girlfriends, all his friends.
He doesn’t wanna be alone anymore…
I’m feeling so empty lately… Like I need closure, affection from someone I can love and trust. But I don’t want to open myself up to “girls” because they don’t know how to hold onto something real. I want something real, someone I can put my trust and give my care to.
I need help, loneliness could be one of the most depressing feelings ever, but being alone keeps me safe and safety is what I need, I just wish I didn’t have to find safety in loneliness but instead in love.
Oh my fucking god! People fucking shit me off so hard, how can they be so blunt, arrogant and stubborn to the people that they should be treating like royalty considering that is the treatment you give them. This is why I distanced myself from people, because they’re fucking stupid, selfish fucks that cares about no one but themselves. They use you when they need too and then when you’re no longer any good to them they knock you down like useless chess pieces. I stuck by him all this time, i could have left him and gone and hanged out with the person he despised and the reason he was alone, but no, I decided to be the good friend. He’s so called “mates” dogged him for some chick and now that they hate her and started hanging out with us again he dogs me for the guys that left him alone. Well fuck you very much, you dog cunt. When I start working again I want nothing to do with anyone again, I’m gonna distance myself and be alone again, I was happy that way no one to let me down, no one to break my trust. I’ll do my own thing, alone. Life is fucked and I hate people.
The moment you can’t have sex with another girl because the one you care about Is still on your mind and controls every aspect of your life.. Feeling hopeless..